Archive for July, 2008

The Heart Of The Matter

Posted: July 30, 2008 in 余音乐坊
The Heart Of The Matter
 
India Arie
 
I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I’m learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
…People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn’t keep me warm

I’m learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

There are people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you inside

I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

 
 
P.S. I was so touched by this song, when the first time I heard. I could not help to listen it over and over again. It was written and performed by Don Henley originally, the vision I have listened is by India Arie, trust me both artists find their way to the heart of the matter.  I have to say it’s the perfect song for every broken-hearted lover…every broken soul…everywhere.
 
"Forgiveness is a release. Letting go. The process of removing errors from the mind in pursuit of harmony… Most people believe that when you forgive someone, you are doing something for them. The truth is, when you forgive, you are doing it for yourself." by Iyanla Vanzant in <One day my soul just opend up>.

提前一个月就定好了这次的“再回伦敦行”本来就是想和Annabel小聚一下,而且算算我也大概有4年都没有回过伦敦了,到现在都觉得在伦敦生活的那段日子特别美好和单纯……
 
找了好久才找到easyjet的便宜机票,就定了5天计划,结果好想什么事情都赶到一起去了:周三晚上的飞机——周四刚好是老铁的毕业典礼,4年不见了,他可是我在英国第一个相依为命的好朋友,就这样把我拉到了Coventry,一见面差点没认出来,当年19岁的小伙居然又大了一号!感叹时间飞逝,还是“哈根达斯”让我们又回忆起了4年前最初的留学生活。
Warwick University, Economic Department Graduation
 
接下来,周五我就加入了shopping的行列,感谢后来陪同的Robert同学的任劳任怨的精神。不过这次再走在牛津街上,已经没有当年的那种感觉了,一切都特别陌生,人多的让我想起了西单王府井,不知道伦敦什么时候突然涌入了如此之多的消费群。4年前走在牛津街上window shopping的我,怎么也不会想到仅仅五千万人口的英国会像北京一样拥挤。一下子就让我shopping的兴趣打了折扣,人多的让我都不想进去淘,而且用Robert的话来说就是几乎都被人过滤过几百遍了。但我还是坚持:I am on Vacation!!的观点拎了件Mango的新款大衣,女人啊~~~
 
周五晚上,就是我和Annabel盼望已久的night out了,我俩在家倒持了1小时,总算花枝招展的出门了。英国女孩本来就高,她还穿了双很kill的highheel,不过露出修长的腿真得很sexy, 她不时地问我是不是看起来有点儿sluty,我说这样才符合night club & pub的风格,哈哈。其实比较让人郁闷的是伦敦的地铁1点就关了,所以我们就不能玩到很晚,因为taxi的价钱真是如同割肉!到了Leicster Square,就看出大城市的熙熙攘攘了,周五的晚上,大家都愿意出来放松一下,而且英国的drining文化也是没有地域差异的,我还是选择了我的最爱cocktail,记得Gemma帮我叫过sex on the beach,那天我和Annabel叫了一扎,2杯下肚,我就晕晕乎乎了,我俩就在酒吧里checkout周围的帅哥,以前早听Annabel说过伦敦的男人特别会flirting,的确如此,哈哈。12点半,我赶快拉上Annabel上了最后一班车。回到家才感觉脚被舞跳得好酸……女人啊~~~
 
周六就把时间给了April,再次伦敦血拼,小有收获又捡到一双faith。话说April,2年没见了特地从Bristal跑到伦敦跟我相会,感动中就不知不觉把我也拐到了Bristal,说是驾照过了要带我去Bath,周日我在一路提心吊胆,唇枪舌战的伴随下终于到了Bath。WOO~~~又是一个类似York的英格兰小镇,舒服的让人一下子就融入到周围的景色中,再一次掉入了欧洲17,18世纪的世界……
 
(照片100%原汁原味原创喔)

The Roman Bath,怎么样,跟postcard没什么区别吧!

Bath Abbey 近距离另一侧

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精巧的街道和街头艺人

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随处可见的各式各样设计的小猪——Bath的标志

我和小A再Royal Crescent前小歇,真想知道什么人住在这座月牙形的百年建筑里……

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最后也不会忘了吃的…… 

总结,再回伦敦已经没有了4年前安逸的感觉,取而代之的是紧张,高节奏的生活方式,城市的尘土慢慢吞噬着古老的文化,那里再也不是我想象中适合生活的地方了。虽然业余时间可做的事情很多,公园,博物馆,教堂,等等,但生活上的压力让人的性格都会变得急躁不安,粗鲁也就代替了友好,自私也就成了每个人的座右铭。这样的城市,只可偶观,不可长流啊。伦敦的金融中心,诱惑着众多的年轻人,但似乎已经不再适合我了……然而回到Aberdeen,有时间还可以点缀一下自己的flat……女人啊~~~

 

写过一篇:Girls Love Shoes. 但还是忍不住在这里意淫一下……谁能抵制High Heels的诱惑呢?
 
 
应Vicky Q同学强烈要求,顺便show一下我的新款from Faith — 现在是我的最爱!还有一双凉拖没有找到图,靴子不太适合这个季节,所以不要以为只有这2双啊,我这次summer sale可是败到家了Embarrassed。很期待Vicky Q同学送的另外2双!Red lips
 

 
 
 
 

Assessment Centre

Posted: July 2, 2008 in 英国轶事
今天可算迎来了我的第一次Assessment Centre. 提前15分钟好容易找到了Thistle Hotel,还在Althes那么远。进去以后没想到有人到先把我认出来了:去年我回国以后那个暂时cover我的男孩,我还奇怪呢,因为我从来都没见过他,原来他是和Claire在一个project上。还好大家聊了一会儿就熟了,而且我感觉这几个应征者都挺容易接触的,都不是那种特别bossy的人。过了一会儿,我们的面试管们来了,让我心踏实了点儿,是因为有几个熟脸,Stepten – Head of Business Sevices,工作的时候见过他几次,而且居然还在一次night out碰到过他。感谢他在开始就给了我一个big smileSmile. Ewan – Project Control Engineer 是最让我欣慰的人,我们都是shell project的!中途还问我感觉怎么样,不要担心。哎呀,我也管不了那么多了,硬着头皮就上吧。做Presentation的时候,连稿都没打开看,直接从头说到尾。坐第一个Group task的时候,我们组表现不太好,都没在规定的时间内完成。不过下午在做第二个的时候,就完全吸取了上一次的教训,得到了一个well done! Psychometric test里的numerical 感觉还行,但verbal感觉不太好,English还是不行啊!Baring teethIndividual Interview是30分钟,我就总是感觉HR在问一些很难回答的问题,有些问题我觉得我都没达到点儿上,不过这个Chef Cost Engineer倒是很nice,我感觉有些时候我说了些我的观点他一直都在点头,这次是第一次见他,以前也仅仅听过名字而已,但愿给他留下些好印象。最后的Presentation,我是完全不顾了我得notes,就顺着说了,总体还行,另外Ewan就是3个听众之一,也给我了一些credit. 这里要感谢Lynsey给我再presentation上的指导。Red rose
一切总算过去了,结果还是未知数,就算是没机会,但经历一下也增加了自己的阅历,以后继续努力!谢谢所有帮助支持我的朋友们!
P.s又一个Aberdeen Hotel让我给吃到了,哈哈,看来也算小有收获!早上居然有bacon roll,结果大家都没吃,stepten还说一会儿你们要经理好几轮呢,赶快吃点儿补充体力!我们还是比较害羞的……饿死啦!Don't tell anyone